Learned Perspective

Hey Angels!

I thought I would do a continuation of the “Spielberg Perspective” blog. I’m preparing for my company launch party, and I can actually say I’m dealing with it a lot better based off the habits I’ve obtained since becoming a business owner. A year ago, I couldn’t say the same. So, lets go back in time and see what has evolved.

During the summer of 2017, I was getting ready for South Central’s Millennial’s Conference, Homecoming and Spoken Word night, Sharpe Road’s NC Young Adult Conference, my best boo’s wedding, the release of God’s Perspective for Me Volume 2, my exit out of a full-time retail management, and about two other things, but you get the jest.

The Millennial’s Conference was the first one we put together, and somehow, I was slowly becoming the leader of it although that was not my aim. While all planning is a rollercoaster ride from beginning to end, when you “kind of have a clue” as to what you are doing, it’s hard to be easy-going. My dad got our first speaker Bro. Carlus Page to commit to our event, but I had to get the second presenter, Bro. Jeremy Flowers. When I traveled to Ohio with my mom in June, we went to his church for worship and I basically told him you’re coming to speak at our conference 😂. He had the nerve to say next year and I had to quickly counter with no, this year sir, and I’m not taking no for an answer. Be there or I’ll have to pull out the Elder wand on you. He agreed to come, but that was only one thing off the checklist of 100 things to do. From marketing, to the schedule, to getting people to attend the meetings. All the fun stuff nobody posts when planning an event. While I had a few other members that helped from beginning to end, it wasn’t enough.

I also had to get ready for the Young Adult conference since I was one of the workshop presenters. Again, it was my first time executing a workshop. My topic was the “Most difficult decision in life and how to overcome it.” The topic was perfect for me for reasons you all know by now, but I wasn’t sure which scripture reference I wanted to come from. A few people were trying to give me ideas, although I don’t remember asking for them, and of course none were the direction I wanted to go🤦🏾‍♀️. Soon Romans 7 popped up in my head, and within a weeks’ time I asked my dad a “hypothetical question.” If you were presenting on this topic what scripture would you use? He quickly said Romans 7. Yeesssss Bro. Dub. So, I started to prepare my delivery. God just kept giving and giving, but the anxiety I had never rested.

I was prepping for our Homecoming since I was on the Souvenir Booklet committee. Our book is usually around 50-60 pages. From designing the cover, the layout, the ads, and getting submissions after the deadline, it can be a very stressful time. We would also set up after worship service about four to six weeks to get all the ads and money collected. It takes us a few months to do all the graphics, and since we are skilled but not experts in graphic design, it takes us a little longer to perform certain task. I had Spoken Word night a month prior as well. It usually didn’t take much prep for that event, but just the thought of it made me roll my eyes.

On top of all that, I was prepping the release of Volume 2. That within itself was a long task. To read your book repeatedly is overwhelming, especially when it’s a spiritual book. On top of editing, I was being drained from the content. I also reworked Volume 2 about five times before I got the proper order. I don’t add the reflective questions as I’m writing, so composing questions for about 55 poems was exhausting too. I had contemplated if I should do the questions, but I wanted to be consistent and got a lot of feed back on the self-reflection it gave on Volume 1, so I kept it. In reality I was just being lazy, but again overwhelmed with everything else that was going on at the time.

I was planning my exit from a full-time position as well because it consumed too much of my life. I started to hear God tell me that road was coming to an end, but I’ll save that for another post. Based off the future I was beginning to see, there was no way I could do the work I was called to do and work every weekend. I didn’t know what the transition would look like, but I knew I had to plan accordingly till the June of 2018. I was trying to figure out what I could do part-time, so I could focus on writing, my speaking skills and a way to brand myself.

Additionally, I was getting ready for my friend’s wedding. I wasn’t as involved as I wanted to be, but I couldn’t and stay sane. I had to write a poem for the ceremony and was asked to write a comedic story based off her friend’s experiences with her. I initially said yes to the comedic speech, but I didn’t have the zeal to do so when my nephew was shot and almost died. The poem came out great, but I couldn’t put any more energy into it. I even apologized to my friend for not being able to do more for her, but she understood all that I was going through.

Oddly enough I didn’t realize I was stressed throughout the arrangements of these events. It wasn’t until August that the planning started to catch up with me. My head was constantly hot, especially around my throat, and I had developed four canker sores at the same time, which lasted for almost three weeks. I started to realize that’s where I carry my stress. I had never felt this way before. I had to restructure the way I was handling my task. I started to take everything one day at a time. I got better every day, but by November I didn’t want to do anything else for the rest of my life.

Fast forwarding to July 18, 2018, I’m stress free. I am one month a way from planning one of the most important days of my life, and I’m not bouncing off the walls. I’ve been taking the advice of the Spielberg documentary, and putting it into practice. I wanted to have all my products ready and 100% by a month of my event and I’m right on track. Even if it means working four hours here and there on the weekends or working through the night. I’ve completed getting my LLC, a trademark lawyer who has filed all my applications to run business under my company, planned a launch party, put a book out, I’ve moved from Raleigh to Greensboro from getting married, left my job, got my website finished, finalized my first clothing and greeting card line, and I’m not anxious. Mind you I’ve done all this in a seven-month period. I knew coming into all these activities, which weren’t planned seven months ago, I had to have a different mindset then a year before.

I had to plan my days out properly. So, when these ideas popped up in my head I could execute them to standard without my own push back. God was preparing me for this moment and other occasions I would have in my life. I thanked God for allowing me to recognize how strenuous this year could be if I didn’t have a strategy. I knew looking forward, I had to look back. Not to dwell in it, but to remind myself of what not to do, then refocus on the present for the future. What is God preparing you for that you need to take heed to? What are you recognizing about your past that could help or hinder your future? What do you need to learn about your past for today? If you are unsure ask God to show you. Ask Him to show you what it is that you have yet to see and understand. He will make it clear for you because He made you. Life is all about learning and getting better through Christ. Whatever you mess up on today, keep moving forward and ask God for guidance in tomorrow. He will prepare you! Just stick with it and know the prophetic words of your life are in His hands.

Be blessed and always stay sunny on the inside.

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